Circa Summer ’02

I thought all night about if I’d meet Terrence or not. Issa set up. No, couldn’t be. Could it? He’s seen me with Fred so he knows I talked to him. Sex. It’s a sex thing. Ugh, I hate boys. I bet that’s what it is. They must be all alike. But maybe he is…

Not Daddy’s Little Girl Pt. 3

My mother was furious! We called my sister, Ta’kiesha, and she was even more heated. Cursing Fred, telling me to give her his number. My protector, she was. Always has been. He didn’t answer at first then she called and he picked up. Her and my mother let him have it. After being cursed out…

Not Daddy’s Little Girl Pt. 2

Fred’s grandmother  waved her hand “hello” to me as he continued to lead me through the apartment into the bedroom. Why are we in here? Oh my god. Why. Are. We. In. Here? Making out was fine and dandy but “more” was just too much for me now. He nor anyone else had to know…

Not Daddy’s Little Girl

My first time having sex was… Not ideal, at all. It didn’t feel like anything good. I heard it never does but it was way too late by then because it was over. I hated it actually. Hated the person, myself for doing it, and the whole experience was just plain stupid. Regretful? Eh. Maybe….